Reality Check!

Today started out as a great day. The sun was shining and I was in a terrific mood with the "Going to knock out everything on my to do list!' attitude. Then I decided I would practice what I preach a little and do a progress photo. I was all excited. I put on the same outfit that started it all. I tried and tried and TRIED to take a decent photo of myself. It so was not happening. Every shot looked like a mug shot! Shouldn't I be smiling for this?? I mean I have come a LONG way since December. I was trying to take this in our little teeny tiny downstairs bathroom (Gotta love the mirror shots) so I decided I would set up my trusty old tripod instead and take it that way. Still wasn't thrilled with any of the fifty shots I took. But settled in on a few contenders anyways.

Side by side of the one from today and the one from december....I see quite the difference. Toned up quite a bit, and definitely smaller! However when you add in my progress pic I did in February, well that's when my heart just sank. I didn't see much change at all. I know with the stress of the cross country move, having three kids, homecoming and well just life in general I should be proud that I still managed to lose weight even when not tracking. But it's just depressing to see first hand such little change.

I'll be honest. I cried a little bit. Let my guard down. Grabbed a bag (smacking my hand now!) of veggie stix and sat infront of a different computer and started thumbing through various pictures. Not paying attention to how many I chowed down. Moment of weakness. A moment of being ashamed. A moment of self destruction.

I'll tell you what. I am not happy with myself for that move! But I just do what I tell everyone else. Pick myself up. Dust myself off. Refocus! One little set back, moment of weakness will not prevent me from reaching my goal.

What can I learn from this today? Well, even though I have come a long way, I still have a ways to go. I am only human for having a moment of weakness, but to sit here and reflect on this only a few hours later with this kind of attitude proves I am stronger than I sometimes give myself credit for. I decided I wasn't going to let this ruin my day. I wasn't going to post the pictures, but I have decided that it is a good reality check for me. It's long over due and it will just push me harder to get to my goal. As well as a way to let go of the bad emotions I had of myself today.

Well there you have it. The imperfect me working hard on a change for a healthier better me. Slow and steady does it. Wonder what I will look like at my one year mark?