Walking home from dropping off the boys to school, I couldn't help but stare at my shadow. I was really drawn to it and quite honestly, I just liked how it made me look. Tall and lean.
Oh to be tall. If I were tall I would not require the use of chairs or step stools to reach above the refridgerator. I would probably feel more comfortable playing sports like volleyball or basketball. I wouldn't have to stand on my tippy toes to kiss my husband. I would be able to walk as fast as my husband! My oldest son would have years to catch up to my height instead of months. But I am not tall. I am short. And that is okay. I am closer to my children. I can play hide and seek easier. I don't require a lot of leg room on an airplane. :D Jealous?? You should be!
Oh to be lean. If I were lean I would not be so self conscious in the fitting rooms. I would not care what people thought of me. I would not have to work as hard as I am now on my health. I would be a positive role model to my boys and their friends. I would be happy. But I am not lean.
STOP! Hear the screeching of the brakes?? I know I am not lean yet. But when I do get lean, I am pretty sure I will still feel self conscious in the fitting rooms. I would still care what people thought of me. I would have to work just as hard, if not harder to maintain my health. I already am a positive role model for my boys and their friends because I am working on being healthier better me. And happy...pft...I am already happy.
I think overweight people have the common misconception that all problems magically disappear in their life once they are skinny. When in fact it can't be further from the truth. I used to have that mentality. 'When I get skinny, my life will be so much better. I won't get picked on or made fun of. I'll have a boyfriend. I'll have this and I'll have that. I will be popular.' Blah blah blah! Did I ever get skinny with that mentality? Well no. Why? Because I wanted what some else had and I was trying to achieve it for all the wrong reasons. I was seeing what society wanted me to see instead of looking at it from a healthy perspective.
I can't speak for the skinny/lean people of the world as I have never been one. But I do have a lot friends that are and they seem have the same self conscious issues I do, just from a different perspective. I used to roll my eyes and get mad everytime I would hear someone smaller than me say they are fat. My husband is famous for that. But they have their own perspective on what suits them. On how they choose to be healthy.
We all are made up of the same ingredients we just end up being shaped differently. It isn't a bad thing. It's a beautiful thing. Be proud of who you are and show confidence in what you have. Life doesn't get better when you get leaner or if you are trying to get curvier. It gets better because you make the choices in life to make it better. You have the power and you have the control to make your life and your body what you want it to be. Me... I want to be the best ME that I can be! I want to be healthy and a good role model for my children. That's what it comes down to for me. Not the dress size or the ability to wear a bikini. Just an all around good healthy positive role model for my three boys.
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