YES! We ARE smaller than we appear!

I don't buy new stuff for me often. When I do buy something new, it's because it's for something specific these days. In fact, most of the pants I still wear, well they are all to big on me. Or they will fit great for the first few hours after departing the dryer, but after that, it's all down hill from there! My shirts are also to big and make me appear to be larger than what I am as well. It's funny as I remember a time where all I wanted to wear was to big for me shirts to hide the massive rolls I have going on here there and everywhere on my body.

Well last week after my WW meeting, I made a stop at old navy on the hunt for bottoms. That is what I really need. I normally LOVE Old Navy jeans, but I wasn't feeling it. Instead I was digging the yellow stuff I was seeing. Yellow shirts, yellow jacket, yellow dress and yes there was even a yellow pair of pants. I almost went for them, but decided against. I ended up leaving there where just a few things. Two tops, a dress and a pair of pants that are actually to small for me. Oh well...I'll fit in them soon enough!

I wore my new tops this weekend at my Mother in Law's. She complimented me on my yellow one!  Made me all sorts of happy! My hubby's not feeling the sunshine with yellow so I shot him the 'I told you so look' and a big grin! =D  The next day I wore the other one and WOW! It's just your basic baseball style 3/4 length shirt. Cream with a bright pink sleeves. I really should have taken a picture, because I seriously felt like a million bucks in that shirt. All because it showed of my body. The right size of my body. And I could see it!

I always tend to see myself as big. The big pushing 300 pounds big with muffin rolls, crescent rolls and any other kind of rolls you can think of.  And it's not me trying to be hard on myself, it's what I see when I look in the mirror. Several times I have heard out here from loved ones how great I look. I tend to roll my eyes or find a way to tell them that I don't. Because when I look in the mirror I still see the old me most days. It's funny how our mind plays tricks on us. We never see ourselves the way everyone else sees us.

I did a Boudoir photo shoot a few months back. I did it as a present for my husband, but mostly, it was for me. It was a way for me to see just how far I came on my weightloss journey. I had a goal in mind of where I wanted to be weight wise. However I didn't make it. But I was okay with that. My Photographer was amazing. I was so nervous but she quickly helped ease my nerves. We had such a funtime with all my different outfits and she even handled my snorting! About a week later I had the link to the most AMAZING slide show I have ever seen. One image that stuck out and still sticks out was an image of my legs. I hate my legs. They are short with fat calves and fat thighs. Well that's how I thought I saw them. In all actuality, they are pretty rocking legs and I have the pictures to prove it. ;)

My point to all this is, and you may have already guessed because you are smart like that! ;) Even though you may not see the change in you, there is a change. If you are getting a compliment, there is a good reason. It's true! Love it! Own it! You deserve it! You have worked so hard and it's showing! I need to be better on this myself.  I will also probably be  living in that new shirt now for a while. I highly recommend going out and getting a new shirt. One that fits you correctly to show off just exactly all the work you have been doing! It really helped to see the me I am now and put a bounce in my step yesterday! Nothing got me down. It was a GREAT day. Heck it was a GREAT weekend! How was yours?